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Saturday, 22 July 2006

  • Just On My MInd

    God's shown me so many things this past week, too many to list! But there was one thing that's stuck out to me. What you want, and what God wants for you. The Bible does say that God will give you the desires of your heart. He'll give you what you want. Then why are so many people wanting certain things and not getting them? Why don't I have a computer? Why can't I get that car? Why can't I go to that school instead? It may seem like God's not listening, but he is. And he's got all the pieces to the puzzle. But it's hard to see the big picture when you want the wrong pieces. But if you're patient, he'll give you more than you could've asked for. Maybe he wants you to get the new computer upgrade coming out next year. Maybe he wants you to wait to get a better deal on a better car. Maybe he knows that this school has the right people for your life. God has big plans for everybody, but he's not gonna show you the movie in the previews. He'll show you enough so that you want to know more, you want to move towards your purpose. But we all forget to have patience on certain things. We say we can't wait. Well, God's been around forever. Ya think he'd be the first to rush things along.

    Let's say it's a really hot day. You really want some ice cream, and there just happens to be a place selling a scoop for $3. You really want it now, but God's telling you "Just wait five minutes. That's it, just five." But the heat! It's getting to you! After much thinking, you decide to wait. You trust that God knows why he wants you to wait. After all, he does know your future, right? So you wait. The wait is rough, it's extremely hot outside, and you desparetly want something cool. The ice cream calls to you, but you push it out of your mind. Sure enough, five minutes later, you see why God wanted you to wait. A new ice cream place opened up. 3 scoops, sprinkled waffle cone, caramel and chocolate chip sprinkled on cheesecake flavored ice cream, with an extra free topping... all for $2!!! This is more than you could've asked for, and it'll definatly keep you filled up longer than the other place's one scoop. God knew what you wanted, but he gave you what you needed. You wanted something cool, he gave you something to KEEP you cool. Ok, so you won't wait 5 minutes for most of your desisions in life. It might take years for some things to work. That's when you need to pray for patience. It may seem like things aren't gonna work out, but remember who has your life. He'll give you better than the best of everything and anything. He threw away that good-enough mentality and made sure you were never satisfied with your accomplishments. So you will receive your heart's desires. All in God's time. Put your trust in him and he'll never fail you.

Saturday, 15 July 2006

  • Much More Serious

    I think school's gonna be a bit tough this year, with it being my Senior year and all. I'm not sure I let Jesus shine entirely before. Sure, I was Christian, I believed in God, and my friends definatly knew it when I refused a ton of things I knew was right. But having a relationship with God means more than just saying no to parties and drinking. We're on a mission to reach the world. This summer's been different for me, in more than one area of my life. I think I can honestly say I've learned more than I ever have in my entire life these past few months. But to really live out God's plan for me, I just can't settle for the regular "Christian life". He's put so much potential in me (in everyone), and I want to see how far I can go, how many I can reach.

    It's crazy, I've never thought like this before! I had always said it without much meaning. Well, now I mean it entirely. I've said it before, and I'll say it again. There's something big in my life, I can feel it. But I have to be ready when the time comes to jump into that opportunity, or watch it fly over my head, too high to reach. It's like a big race. You don't just run at the Olympics. You have to train years before to get to that level, understand the sport and live the sport. You know your limits so you can break them.

    I know I have a lot to work on, even though I've already come so far. This is nothing now compared to where God can take me in my life. There will be times when I have to step away from things that can become a distraction, something that can pull me back or hold me in place without me knowing it. Some seem to be great, but I really have to pay attention to what really matters and where all my time is going. Sometimes my heart says one thing, but the mind over powers it. I need to be in control spiritually in order to hear what God wants me to do and where he wants me to go. I'm giving him my pen. He'll tell me where this story goes from here. And I put my full trust in him.

Thursday, 13 July 2006

  • MONTWOOD STUDENTS (primarily runners in the end)

    So I decided to put up my new schedule for my SENIOR year! If you got any classes with me, tell me which ones! I may have been at Montwood for almost a year, but I still hardly have many friends. Thank God for CC! Anyways:

    A Day

    1. Spanish II Non-native A330 Borrego
    2. AP English Literature C214 Hansen
    3. Speech A115 Bennett
    4. Cross Country

    B Day

    1. BUS MULTIMED (computer course) A221 Bouche
    2. AP Government A228 Elizondo (BEST TEACHER EVER!!!)
    3. Pre-AP PreCalculus A302 Bachman
    4. Cross Country

    For any cross country runners who have been running in the early mornings or late evenings like me. Please step outside of your homes between 2:30 and 3:00 p.m. WE'RE RUNNING IN THAT!!! Today I only stepped out for like a minute, and was already sweating hard. Aren't we doing like Montwood Middle the first day? Even Oshae's gonna be hard in that heat! I just finished my running notebook today. Just gonna put in my times. I gotta print out the summer workout at school or something cuzz I don't have a printer here, and I don't wanna write all that down!

Wednesday, 12 July 2006

  • Kinda hard on me

    I'm proud to say that I've cleaned up my itunes very well! I've deleted like 200 songs that were no good to me. After a lot of thinking, I've realized that whenever there was a huge situation in my life, I'd always have some depressing song on. To the point where I guess you could say I was addicted to making myself depressed. Sounds dumb, but true. People would drink till they were drunk, or do drugs till they passed out. I liked feeling depressed, I liked crying myself to sleep, it was the only way I could really cope last year. Well, I'm glad I deleted those songs. I would've started playing them all over again. Kinda found out my mom's got a new boyfriend. But they're "serious" (dunno what serious is to her). So she's moving to Michigan to live with him. At first, I just didn't know what to think. It's hard for me now cuzz...this is my MOM! I know she was real messed up in the past, but we've had a good relationship going on. I finally had the mother-daughter conversations I could only dream of, and all this other stuff. It was hard when Luis left to the Air Force, when Mari went to Las Vegas. But they needed to start their own lives. This is even harder, cuzz aren't parents supposed to be there for you. I really don't want her to go, but what's stopping her? And what if this is God's plan? Just please pray for me, I'm not taking all of this so great. Glad nobody can see me right now. And I thank God those songs are gone, or I'd most likely be in worse shape. To think, this is just one person I'm going to miss. I really gotta be strong once it's time for Australia. *~*

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